So I have been thinking about the key on not getting stuck when working from or pulled out of the pure awareness & oneness of the I am state of consciousness.
Anyone who isn’t familiar with this language can check that out here.
When we start to move toward & be in the space of I am we at first may become aware that every time a thought arises in the mind, it carry’s a sort of stickiness to it.
It has a pull that relies on our desire, or our “wanting”. Our attached mind that seeks personal form in its pondering.
So the key is simple these thoughts are like a honey, and weather its chocolate, pizza or sex, or the fear we won’t be seen as we wish to others, ultimately its all personal to the mind-state/ ego state / or whatever you wish to call it of identification.
A few weeks ago I saw this quote
Before a thought arises, do you know it is going to
come? You cannot decide, ‘Oh, I’m only going to have
Jesus-thoughts today,’ or, ‘I dedicate this space for
only Buddha’s words and contemplations this week.’
Thoughts arise arbitrarily and unannounced, but this
by itself is not thinking. Thinking begins when the
arising thought connects with the thinker-thought,
the thinker-identity. Out of this communion, thinking
is produced. Know that both the thoughts and the
thinker of thoughts are one: mind. When it is seen that
even the thinker is a thought believed into existence,
the power or force of the psychological mind dissipates,
and peace prevails.
So when that “thought arises” we get personal and the honey of desire pulls us in and we “Forget our true state” Our uninterrupted state that is always present. Our I amness of being.
To add in Nag Hammadhi the saviour speaks on being in want further and about God.
‘Become full, and leave no space within you empty, for he who is coming can
Then Peter replied, “Lo, three times you have told us, ‘Become full’; but we are full.”
The Savior answered and said, “For this cause I have said to you, ‘Become full,’ that you
may not be in want. They who are in want, however, will not be saved. For it is good to
be full, and bad to be in want. Hence, just as it is good that you be in want and,
conversely, bad that you be full, so he who is full is in want, and he who is in want does
not become full as he who is in want becomes full, and he who has been filled, in turn
attains due perfection. Therefore, you must be in want while it is possible to fill you, and
be full while it is possible for you to be in want, so that you may be able to fill yourselves
the more. Hence, become full of the Spirit, but be in want of reason, for reason <belongs
to> the soul; in turn, it is (of the nature of) soul.”
So a key is to be in want of God surely, In want of that divine honey which when we get immersed in that, Holy Spirit Insulation makes it easy for us to be detached from wanting earthly things & therefore the personal identification doesn’t happen.
So this is why they talk about becoming detached from earthly things in so many religions. But at the same time we must be in want of the Sweetness of God.
And he talks about the nature of God as thus
He does not activate himself so as to become still. He is not an existence,
lest he be in want. Spatially, he is corporeal, while properly he is incorporeal. He has
non-being existence. He exists for all of them unto himself without any desire. But he is a
greater summit of greatness. And he is higher than his stillness, in order that …
So it seems clear to me that when we attain our own buddahood or to be in the likeness of god “perfection” we will no longer be lost in want.
So, there is no other one hidden except God alone. But he is revealed to everyone, and yet
he is very hidden. He is revealed because God knows all. And if they do not wish to
affirm it, they will be corrected by their heart. Now he is hidden because no one perceives
the things of God. For it is incomprehensible and unfathomable to know the counsel of
God. Furthermore, it is difficult to comprehend him, and it is difficult to find Christ. For
he is the one who dwells in every place, and also he is in no place. For no one who wants to will be able to know God as he actually is, nor Christ, nor the Spirit, nor the chorus of angels, nor even the archangels, as well as the thrones of the spirits, and the exalted lordships, and the Great Mind. If you do not know yourself, you will not be able to know all of these.
Open the door for yourself, that you may know the One who is. Knock on yourself, that the Word may open for you. For he is the Ruler of Faith and the Sharp Sword, having become all for everyone because he wishes to have mercy on everyone.”
And therefore knowing our true-self, and becoming immersed in the self is key. Put on the sweetness of God which will protect you from the stickiness of egoic personal identification. Give all to God as all is His, claim nothing, want nothing outside of Him & in the wanting of him let go of want.
Yes it sounds self contradictory, because in-order to approach the self we must not want to approach the self. In order to meditate we must not want to meditate. Meditation on the self is how we approach god, and meditation on the self brings “Reason, Wisdom.”
It’s this wisdom that reorders the mind such that it is not in want and yet at the same time in want of Gods Kingdom. And because of this the nature of God is always hidden, as when we approach him we do so with eyes wide shut